Thoughts...

At church one sunday, a song entitled "have I done any good in the world today" was sung. And then I thought of my yesterdays deeds. I have never really done worth remembering, and note worthy. I do not feel like I have been able to influence others for good. I feel like my spiritual and emphatic life has been stagnant for quite a long time now.

I wish I was a better person, a better friend, a better mother, a better wife, a better sister, a better daughter. Life is too short to live it only superficially. Asa personal goal, I wish to put myself more out in the open to be more helpful and not expect anything n return for it. And maybe the next time the song "have i done any good in the world today" is sang in Church, I will have a better feeling than the one I had that one sunday at church.

sobrang hirap...

sa totoo lang sobrang stressed na ako dahil sobrang hirap maghanap ng bahay. Sobrang hirap din maghanap ng Realtor na talagang totoong tumulong dahil lang gusto nyang tumulong. Di ko na alam ang gagawin ko. Medyo on hold pa ngayon ang pagbili ng bahay dahil sa katangahan ng aming realtor...pinull nila ang aming credit before ng 30 days so bumaba nanaman and credit score ...hay katangahan talaga ng mga tao. so ngayon, kelangan ulit namin maghintay ng 30 days bago ulit mapreapprove. my gosh...di ko alam ang gagwin ko...pero nasurprise talaga ako kasi kabaliktaran ng reaction na ineexpet ko ang naging reaction ng aking mahal na asawa. sabi lang nya...siguro hon, di pa tym para makabili tayo ng bahay. Kelangan pa siguro nating magipon ng pang down and everything. So now ok na ako...medyo stressed parin pero mas ok na ako kasi calm si kamille. Pero pag natalo ang LA Lakers ngayong gabi...lagot na dahil yun ang magiging trigger ng pagkatopak ni kamille. So good luck nalang sa lakers...sana eh manalo sila...

My cute little Kohath under the influence of heavy medication...

On Monday the 20th of April, kohath finally had his surgery. It was a terrible day to do it because we were down south the weekend before. Spent a few days with family and friends and got home at 12 midnight that sunday. We then had to get up at 3am to get to Madera at 6m in time for his scheduled surgery. He was trying to wake up but was still looking sleepy...

When we got there, he was still playing and was enjoying the toys they had at the Day Surgery.

H1B cap 2010 was not hit during first 5 days. So, this is good news to companies that submitted H1B this year. There will be no lottery.

So yesterday, kamille send me an email he got from CBIZ HR and their Lawyers saying how their H1B visa has been accepted and is in process and that all 6 applicants will be relieved to know of this event.  So kamille and i were excited yet hesitant to be relieved...so today i was going through Caping updates for h1b's and i found this article on www.happyschoolsblog.com/h1b-cap-fy-2010-not-hit/  and it says everything reassuring.  

The last year was trully a trying time for me because of uncertainties of our situation.  the hardest were the last couple of months because i have been stressing out so much because of how uncertain our future could be without Kamille's H1B.  Prayers are really answered if the desires of our hearts are pure.

A few weeks ago, i was accused of not being true to the promises I made when I signed a contract for IWES at BYUH, which is to return home after I finish school.  I was even told that if I were true to my word, I should prove this person wrong...and that I should go home and do what I said I was to do after graduation.  After that accusation, I thought to myself...he might have a point...although I am still in the states legally because my husband was given an opportunity to stay and work here.  So I talked to family and friends and others who might be of comfort...The Lord , in prayers being the first I turned to.  All these people had different yet so similar effect on me and had been able to comfort me through this struggle.  

Overall, I know I am where I am, with people I need to be around with, and doing what I am doing because of the choices I made through the help of the Lord.  I know that others may think otherwise, but I know that the Lord is happy with my decision to keep my family together, be a support to my wonderful husband and son.

It was not so easy to decide to stay in the States.  We struggled too.  Being away from family was the biggest concern..but as we look forward with faith and determination applying everything we have learned in life, we will be better people, and along the way touch at least one person we meet and make a difference in their life.

Still going through a little bit of stress because we may not be so certain until kamille has the approval, but I know the Lord knows what we need and that he will grant us blessings if we do what is right.

   

Pre-surgery memories worth remembering part 1

Kohath was born with hypospadias and needs to go through reconstructive surgery.  We visited with the doctor at the Children's hospital in Madera on the 17th of february.  He saw the doctor and explained the surgery to us.  She also required that he gets three shots, once a week, for three weeks before the scheduled surgery....

So first obstacle was to find the shots here in bakersfield so we don't have to drive up to madera everytime...That would save us almost 18 hours of travel for three weeks.  But then out of one month of searching for pharmacies and hospitals that could supply us with the medications, none of them worked.  So we ended up having to drive up to madera every week to get koko's HCG shots. 

Second Obstacle: Since I dont drive...i have to find rides...and that was a struggle too...Thanks to my friends from the family ward we go to, I was able to find rides to appointments...but today...the 8th of april, the person who was suppose to take us came down with shingles so we had to find a different ride last minute.  

April 8,  we woke up early to get ready...koko got changed after his shower, and as i was getting everything ready...i heard him push hard...and then i looked at the clock and it was 8:20am already.  10 min before our ride arrives...he needed a diaper change...he sees to it that he gets his diaper dirty...just to test my patience... but it was better than having him do it on the way to madera...I was calm of all days...I get panicky at times because i hate making people wait on me.  Anyways we get to Madera..and everything that could go wrong...with tubes connecting the Pharmacy from the urology Bldg not working...and kohath not wanting to get his weight measured...to forgeting to bring tissue for his runny nose...it was just a bit challenging...

So while waiting on the shot to come...kohath was so amazed at the opening and closing mechanism of drawers and doors of cabinets at the exam room.  So he opens and closes the doors and drawers.  He slammed a drawer and smashed his fingers once...cried so hard...for about 3-5 second he kept crying and screaming...then I(clueless) turned and saw his left fingers being  smashed by his pushing the drawer by his right hand...I for a second thought it was the funniest thing in the world...but then i took him in my hands, kissed his fingers and let him cry out his pain...  Another thing he found from the opening of drawers were lab gowns they had for babies.  he took one and tried to put it on by himself...but i had to help him...

Finally the nurse came and gave him the shot...after a gazillion years of waiting...finally she comes...we wait for 10 min just to make sure everything was good...then it was time to leave.  Kohath wont take off the hospital gown...he would cry so hard that we had to take the gown home with us.  

When we got home, he realized he didnt have his gown on, he started crying asking for it.  So i had to put it on him...So there he is...pictures will be posted soon... 

KOKO has been so appreciative of my work...

So, about a couple months ago, kamille had me fix his pants.  Needless to say...I ruined it and it has been sitting in the closet for quite sometime.  So I found out that Claire had a sewing machine and so i worked my magic and made koko a pair of pants and a vest for sunday.  KOKO even wanted to wear his vest while playing around the house.  He thought it was the nicest pair of Sunday Clothes he has ever had...hehehhe I hope it stays this way. I still need to alter the pants though coz it was too big for koko that it was falling off while he was walking...Kamille came home last night and thought it was a great effort but I thought he was just saying it because he wanted me to feel good about it.  but i dont care...hehhehehe

I am proud to be an Engineer's Daughter

So I was going through my email today and found this story sent to me by a friend. Refer to the Temple story on my notes on facebook... It made me think of how wonderful it is to have a father who has gone through similar experiences as this man.  He was able to do projects for the church and being able to see what people in his field go through, i know that i am blessed to have a dad so great in everything he does...

Malayopa ang fathers day, but papa, if you ever come across this blog, we want you to know that we appreciate you and love you so much.  You are a great example to me and Kamille.  Thank you for all you do for us.